Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Day One Complete

Well, today was day one of BCP's. I am so happy we are finally starting to do something.  And today was my birthday (the 20th).  So, I cant think of a better day to start this journey.  I pray that next year at this time I am holding my baby in front of my tree instead of my pack of pills. HaHa

Sunday, December 19, 2010

We are finally starting..........

Well, AF arrived yesterday.  I called Wash U and was told to start BCP's Monday the 20th (which happens to be my birthday), Lupron Jan 6th, first doctors appt Jan 19th and if all goes well start stims on Jan 21st.  ER should be week of Jan 31st. Very excited, very nervous!!!  I am so ready to get things going. 

How soon after I start stims, should I expect my first doctors appointment for ultrasound and blood work???

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Back to the Land of the Living

Wow, what a rough week it has been.  Finally got the results back of my ultrasound, my gallbladder and pancreas came back normal.  My liver came back as "increased liver activity with elevated liver enzymes" but they said it was nothing to worry about.  I wonder if God just gave me this as a distraction from getting ready to START IVF IN LESS THAN A WEEK!!!  Holy crap.  If AF behaves, she should arrive on Friday the 17th and hopefully BCP's this coming week.  Very excited, very scared, and very nervous!!  Getting closer to our dream....

Thursday, December 9, 2010


Well, I went to the doctors on Tues afternoon.  He described 3 categories.  First, someone that isnt diabetic at all,  2nd someone who is diabetic and needs medicine or insulin, and the 3rd is a grey area in between.  That is where I am. Not needing meds or insulin but my levels are raised and out of the normal area.  He recommended me going to a dietician and learning what to eat and what not too.  But then he said that he doesnt believe my problems are related to that.  He thinks something else is going on and the blood sugar is a result of that.  He thinks it is either my liver, pancreas, or gallbladder.  Scheduled more blood tests and wants an ultrasound done of my gallbladder.  That is scheduled for tomorrow morning at 7.  He insisted on running a pregnancy test along with some other things.  Results came back yesterday, my liver enzymes are elevated, and SURPRISE pregnancy test was NEGATIVE.  I could have saved myself $60.00 and the sting of someone else telling me I wasnt pregnant.  Pissed me off.  I knew I wasnt, but they dont care.  Money sucking bastards.  And then I got to here yet again, you're not pregnant.  Geez, the feelings of an IF.  I hope that is the last time a professional tells me that.  So, now I sit and wait, and wait and wait it feels like.  Still getting very dizzy all the time and pretty much only able to lay flat to not be dizzy.  Go tomorrow for the ultrasound but then you have to wait 2 or 3 days to get results back. YIPPEE  It's the weekend, I need to figure out what is wrong and get back to work.  Everything moves so slow. 
Now I have a big decision to make.  I am supposed to have my period Dec 17th and start my "official" cycle, BCP's then shots.  And I have 2 weeks scheduled at the end of January to be off for ER and ET.  But if I end up needing surgery or some strong meds or something and get half way through my cycle, I will have to start over.  Then again, if I put off this cycle to next month and it turns out there isnt anything wrong with me and I have some kind of viral thing going on, I will have to change all the days I have off already in January and go through that whole process.  I dont know what to do???  Wait and hope they find something, or start and hope they dont???  Any advice ladies...........

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Nothing like a trip to the emergency room to scare you to death

I am sitting here shaking. I just need to get it out without saying it to someone who is sitting there staring at me.  I havent been feeling well since early Friday morning, very pukey, just icky.  Thought I was coming down with the flu.  Called in sick to work over the weekend and still felt just off.  I got DH to go to my moms and get her blood sugar machine.  Sure enough, my levels were all out of whack.  I have extensive history in my family of diabetes.  And I am not a small woman.  So, I have been very sick with high blood sugar.  Ended up in the emergency room yesterday for blood work and a general workup.  Well, the A1C which measures your 3 month blood sugar average doesnt come back right away, the have to send it off.  I mentioned to the doctor about upcoming IVF cycle starting in about 10 days and they said that wouldnt be possible if my levels are so high and they cant get them under control.  So now I am sitting here, my primary calls me and tells me he wants to see me today.  Wont give me my results back over the phone.  I am panicked and bawling and dont know what to think.  I am so mad at myself and my body and I feel like everything is slipping away from me.  All I can think is that there is bad news that they wont tell me over the phone.  I had expressed my concern with having to pay for a doctor visit today with just paying for er visit yesterday.  Why cant they just tell me over the phone????  I swear, if I get there and everything is fine, I will be relieved but I will guarantee they will have a bitch on their hands.  I will throw the biggest tantrum right there in the office.  And if I get bad news, then I just dont know what I will do.   Please Lord, dont take away my chances for being a Mom before I even get to take the first step.
Anyone out there diabetic and either preggo now or had a baby????  I could use some positive thoughts right now.  Until then, I go at 1:40pm.  Prayers would be appreciated.  Thanks

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Swimmers On Ice, Coming to a Vagina Soon!!

Yesterday, DH had his TESE.  It went really well.  They got 5 vials of sperm.  Basically they say that they thaw 1 vial per egg retrieval.  So we have enough if I want to do 5 cycles of IVF.  Umm, no thanks!!!  First of all, I know we cant afford it, so no need to talk about it.  I am so proud of him, he did great.  We got there at 0615, they took him back at 0725 and he was done at 0830.  We spent about 90 min in recovery and then we were off for our 2 1/2 hour drive home.  Spent most of the day in bed sleeping yesterday.  Minimal bruising and only had to have a 2 inch incision and just had to go to 2 sites to get what they needed.  Doctor said that was great.  So, swimmers are frozen!!! WAHOO   Now it is up to me and my body.  I pray they want to play nice and behave.  Expecting Aunt Flo on or about Dec 17th, then BCP's then we will fully be in our "cycle".  I am sure things will start happening fast, but I feel like it is all moving at snails pace.  But it is nice to say that our first "official" step is complete with a success.  Waiting for next step...
P.S     Special thanks to DH for coming up with the title of this post.  Pretty proud of himself, I think. LOL